Arizona or Bust

Well . . . bust it is!  As many of you know we were scheduled to fly to Arizona yesterday to visit family.  All of us were so looking forward to the visit.  Scott and Chris getting to celebrate their birthday together for the first time in like 15 years, Addy getting to see her cousins, meeting Alexie . . . knife to the heart people.  Because it is all my fault that we aren't going.  I am just so sick with nausea I can't hardly function.  So, my family both here and in Arizona were amazingly stand up people and were okay when I panicked Friday night and realized there is no way I can make this trip right now.  Really . . . would you like to see what I spend my time doing?

I sit here.  All the time.  It looks like I peed the couch, thankfully I haven't done that yet.  It is just permanently indented from my butt sitting in the same spot all the time.

Here I am today, off the couch . . . to unpack. :( 

And since I am off work anyway, I lose my leave if I don't take it this week . . . this is what my house looks like on Sunday night.  Seriously.  It never looks like this on a Sunday night.  And as I sit in my spot on the couch and tell myself I have time I don't have to clean it because I am not going to work tomorrow, I am sweating. 

Okay, so that is the sad part of the story . . . its occurred to me that I have been focusing a lot on the sad parts lately.  Kick in the behind to me.  It could be a lot worse.  Look at all the things you have to be thankful for:

I am sick for a very good reason.  Keep your eye on the prize. 

My husband and daughter are willing to give up things they want (like Arizona) to support me in my time of need.  And even sick, my husband will take Addy upstairs to play scoobydoo wii so I can relax.

My parents - bless them!  Every day I am so thankful  to have my parents.  Last week they make St. Patrick's Day so fun for Addy with surprise gifts.  My little girl is so lucky!  They are always willing to help - with anything.  Thank you!

My AZ family - not one word of censure over the last minute decision.  Thank you!  You all are such a wonderful part of our lives and I can't wait to see you.  I am sad we aren't there with you now, but hopeful that soon we will have a wonderful visit.

My friends - who I am neglecting terribly.  I promise I will be better one day and we can hang out and I owe everyone coffee or tea or a martini . . . just knowing you are there is wonderful to my miserable self.

And my Kindle!  Did I tell you Scott got me one for Christmas?  It is my new BFF right now.  I love it, love it, love it.  If you are thinking about it - take the plunge.  So worth it.  I could do a post just about it.  If I can lose myself in a book long enough I can fade away from the constant annoyance of the nausea for a few minutes - heaven.

Looking forward to a restful week.  Perhaps a little work, but also some rest time for me.  I can be a true hermit.  Perhaps I can watch a buffy marathon.  Oh, isn't that a grand idea? 

Milestones

There is nothing like those special milestones . . . not just the fun ones, like walking and talking though.  I really love those difficult milestones that show tenacity and commitment, on the part of Addy and us as parents.  This weekend, even while I was sick as a dog still, Scott jump started Addy on the way to yet another milestone.  And the girl pasted with flying colors.

I admit we've been pretty strict parents when it comes to most things - we never caved on sleeping issues, or let up on schedule issues, even during travel.  The one thing we've been super lenient on is the binky.  Addy still sleeps with one.  I couldn't bear to force her to give it up.  It keeps her a little toddler in my mind.  Really.  Its me.  I am the only mother in the world that didn't want my baby out of diapers.  Another sign she was still little.  Pathetic I know.

So, this weekend Scott and Addy decided it was time.  She made a bag for the her binkies and we put it on the porch for the binky fairy. 

There was the promise of a great gift by the binkie fairy.  And the binky fairy delivered!

Boy, the tooth fairy is gonna have some high expectations.

So even though I bawled at least three times this weekend over my little one growing up, Addy sailed through and was so proud of her big girl status.  Gosh, I love this kid.

Still feeling absolutely horrible sick.  Trying a new medication and that is making it a bit more tolerable.  (I was really sick last time but not quite so severe.  I got sick at the exact same week in my pregnancy.  Unfortunately last time I was sick through about 17 weeks.  What does all this mean?  A boy, a girl?  Hopefully a super healthy baby!!)  Well the weekends are the worst because I am not focused like I am at work.  So today I decided screw the nausea, I am going to do one productive thing!  And I actually did.  Thank goodness, there is nothing worse then going day to day, just doing the bare minimum to get by - watching all the projects and needs pile up.  One tiny item is off the list:  the front flower bed no longer looks like it did above.

It may not be sunny here yet.  Heck it snowed 10 days ago.  But I needed some color!!!! 

Joy.  Color.  A productive hour spent.  And I even got some of my maternity clothes unpacked and ready to go.  Thanks Courtney for bringing them over!!  I am definitely out of regular clothes now.  But I can't have anything touch my stomach so I am in dresses and skirts with no tights - brrrrr.  I am really hoping we have an early spring!

Excitement

I wasn't exaggerating about Addy's excitement about having a baby brother or sister.  Being an only child myself, I have been very worried about having another child.  Would Addy feel bad?  Would she be happy or upset?

I can't ever remember wishing I had a brother or sister - being an only child was great.  So, what the heck am I doing to my little girl?

Well, she is more excited then both of us combined - seriously.  She has now posted this sign on our front door:

The purpose is to ensure that everyone knows we are having a baby!  As you can tell she is definitely thinking that a girl would be perfect.  We aren't sure if we are going to find out or not, we'll have to think about it some.  Addy isn't opposed to a baby brother - but as she points out most of the boys at school are kind of mean, and girls are nicer.  Love her tried and true logic. :)

5 years

I kept asking myself why did it take 5 years for me to commit to doing this again?

OH YEAH!  Now I remember . . .

THE FREAKIN' NAUSEA!!!!!

So, although I am miserable and grumpy, I am happy to announce that we will be having a baby in September.  Addy is so very excited to be a big sister.  We are of course very excited as well.  Did I mention I am miserable and grumpy too?  Good times.

Love, your anti-social, pity party, miserable and grumpy friend, Jessica

PS.  Hopefully in a few weeks I will feel tons better and I can once again be my fun self. 

PPS. I would be okay if it was sooner rather then later.

PPPS.  I have set a date to feel better.  It is realistic, because it is a far ways out.  I really have decided I must be better before the royal wedding.  I have waited 30 years to see a Prince marry his Princess again and darn it, I am going to feel better so that I can enjoy it in all its media craziness!!