Sometimes I look at Addy Bear and it makes my heart squeeze tight.  She isn't going to be my only baby in 5 more months.  I realize most of my friends and family have more then one child and probably think I am crazy feeling so worried about having baby number two.  But it is hard, mostly because I don't want to change the dynamic we have with Addy.  I look at these silly and cute pictures and wonder what life will be like in a year.

 Perhaps it is because we waited so long between kids . . . they will be 5 years apart.  Perhaps it is because I am an only child.  Addy was so cute and grown up today in her green dress and her hair pulled back in the pony tail . . . this just added to my angst that she is growing up and we are starting down a totally new path.

It is with such a strange mix of excitement and worry that I look upon the next 5 months.  I am starting to feel better, health wise.  The last two weeks have brought more and more relief from the constant misery of the nausea.  It is such a relief.  And right in time for the royal wedding!!  YEA!!

Art Show

Addy has been doing a lot of drawing lately.  Here is a very small sampling of the artist.

 Scott and Addy trade a lot of pictures.  He'll draw her a special picture after she goes to bed and will slide it under her door as a surprise when she gets up.  Then she'll make something special for him.

 Addy decided she needed to help us to know whose bathroom is whose.  So now we all have pictures like this on all the bathroom doors.  And she has put us on notice that if we want to use each other's bathrooms we should really ask first.

 I got this card one morning when I work up. 

 This is one of my favorites of the family.

My BFF

Remember in my last post how I commented on how great Addy has been to me?  Tonight she made this very special bed for me to lay down in.  She even included books to read, a baby to snuggle and snacks for me to choose from.  What a sweetheart!!

I love this girl!!

15 weeks

Hi everyone!  Its been too long . . . sorry about that. Wish I could say it is because we are doing very exciting and fun things here or going on trips.  Alas, I am still feeling very sick.  I am in my 15th week of pregnancy and although I have had a couple of days where the nausea was less, 95% of the time I am still pretty miserable. 

I decided to do the more advanced genetic screening testing since I fall into the category of advanced maternal age ( I will be 35 when the baby is born).  Wow - that is depressing.  I think I am the oldest person ever to have a baby, I am always in the waiting rooms with these girls that are so young. :)  We've completed the first portion of the screening and in two weeks we do the final screening and should get our results back.  So far the pregnancy has gone well.  Outside of the sickness, everything else seems like it is progressing as it should.  Looking back on my first pregnancy I was still sick at this stage, but better around the end of April -  I really hope that happens this time.  Cross your fingers.

Did I mention the due date yet?  October 5th . . . that ring a bell for anyone?  Yup, its Addy's birthday.  It doesn't really matter because I have to have another c-section, I will be scheduled a week early, so it looks like the last week of September will be the time.  It seemed like there was a lot of confusion for the doctor's at first regarding the due date so we really didn't have a definitive date we could all agree on until we did the ultrasound as part of the genetic screening.   Scott and I both just burst out laughing when the due date popped up.  What are the chances?  Could you even plan that if you wanted to?

But the one thing about the due date is that it is easy to measure my two pregnancies since they are unfolding at about the same time.  I just hope that the nausea goes away like the first time, I don't think I can survive too much more of this!!

Here are just a few pictures of what we've been up to lately:

Grandma and Grandpa came over and helped Addy decorate the Easter tree.  Grandma brought Addy a pirate costume.  This girl is in heaven.  She runs around in it screaming "aaaaaauuurrrrggghhh" for hours.

 

This is her scary pirate face:

Just Addy.  She has been such a trooper during my tired-nausea-crying-nausea-do nothing stage.  She is very kind to me.  Scott and Addy are such a blessing to me!!!

Oh yeah . . . and look this is my misery spot.  I sit here - a lot.  I swear when this is done you won't be able to pay me to sit down here.  We may have to get a new couch.

 

Awkward moment of the week:  I was on the verge of gagging at work.  To be kind to everyone else and save myself the humiliation of people hearing me as I was walking between meetings, I jumped into an empty conference room.  It wasn't empty.  I was gagging before I even was able to realize there were 5 people I'd never seen before eating lunch in the room.  Wow!  They must have been pretty impressed.  As I am gagging I am frantically ripping open a bag of crackers and literally stuffing them into my mouth.  It doesn't make sense to chew too much because I gotta get the food to my stomach as quickly as possible.  Very lady like.  Partial crackers falling to the floor out of my stuffed fist, and crumbs going everywhere.  Typically I am trying to heavy breath to steady myself and squinching my face up to try to hold back the gagging as my stomach clinches.  Sometimes I even moan in misery.  This was all probably going on as well as I am realizing there are people watching me.  I just turned around and left, didn't say a word.  I mean what do you say?  Can you imagine what they were telling their co-workers?  I look pregnant for sure, but not so much so that it is terribly obvious if you aren't looking for it.  So who knows what they might have thought.  Good times.