Brace yourself . . . no pictures people. I know, what good is a post without pictures? They will come. I just can't get motivated to download any tonight. Here is my problem: I am having a complete come apart. I mean it. And its killing me because I always prided myself on being way better then all those pathetic moms going on and on about this topic. Seriously, get over it! - I used to think when I would see the pictures and read about it.
But now it is happening to me.
I've been telling myself that Addy is having a hard time, and blaming every tear and issue on the coming changes. I think I am the one that can't handle the change. I actually had a nightmare about it last night.
Addy is starting kindergarten in two weeks.
And it feels like life as I know it is coming to an end. I can't handle it. I am blubbering as I type this. Really. Sniff. Sniff.
And I always made fun of all the "first day of kindergarten pictures" and stories. Never again. I get it now. I have the supplies, I have the clothes, I have the backpack . . . I need couseling for me. I mean its not like she's home with me all day. Frankly, its no different then any other day that she goes to school and I go to work. But its DIFFERENT.
So, now that I have admitted that I am as bad as every other mother I can move on and post all about it. And hopefully by typing it I am starting to accept it and I can move on. At least until the big day comes.
Thats me, a pathetic cliche I used to make fun of . . . oh how it all comes back around. :)
